When your bubble finally breaks

As a general rule I can handle infertility and all the baggage that comes with it, but here lately it's become harder and harder. I've had some pretty insensitive things said to me over the years of the why and how I can't have kids. The other night after I unintentionally ticked off an anti vaxxer and she made a low blow. I told God "wow you must have a protective bubble around me because that didn't sting like it should have''. The more I've thought about it over the last few days the more I've realized it's true. Some people will read this and think I've become immune to rude comments, but it doesn't work like that. I truly believe God has protected me and will continue to protect me, but the sobering reality that comes with that is the devil will try harder and harder to break through. Some people say things that hurt unintentionally, we all do, but others do it on purpose. When someone hurts you you have to remember two things, its a reflection on them not you and some times they just don't know better. Today the devil charged straight through my bubble, and I did not do well following my own advice. You know the saying "it's easier said than done"? I'm right smack dab in the middle of that. What people don't tell you is it's ok to be mad, cry, and have a pity party. Just don't stay there. After you get over it use that to drive you farther. Educate those that hurt you. When I started this blog it's intentions were to base it around farming, but that quickly changed. I'm generally a private person that doesn't want to talk about how I feel or what I'm going through, and I sure don't want to talk about IVF. But there's something about this thats cathartic. I haven't mentioned what was said, but I already feel better. What I want you to know is that it's going to be ok. People will always be hurtful and ignorant, they will always say things that leave you dumbfounded, but get it out. Get out all the pain and then step back in your bubble, in fact that's where I'm headed back to now.